It could’ve been worse, I guess.

This has been a very difficult week. Actually, I think that choosing to quit smoking during the winter months, when I’m teetering on the edge of depression, took a huge leap of faith on my part. Or maybe I’m just intent on doing everything the hard way.

Okay, so I’m dealing with depression. It happens every winter, right around the time we move the time back and the temps begin to drop. I don’t think it’s really worth mentioning since it’s become a regular thing now. Just part of life, you know?

Work was stressful. Since this is the first week of the month, we did billing this week. That means a lot of extra work besides our normal stuff. Billing week is always hectic but this one, being the first of the year and right after Christmas, was especially hellish. So yeah, a cig would have been nice at least a dozen times each day.

Here on the home front, I have had three different people angry with me at various times. All felt the need to yell – loudly – to get their messages across. (Because if they yell, they will be right, of course.) One person gave me the cold shoulder for several days. And then there are those members of this family who are angry with each other. Talk about tension! Living here has been an exercise in patience. Somehow, I got through all that without a smoke. I’m still not sure how that happened. Must have been the prayer.

Now I’m starting on week two. I have no idea what will go wrong this week but I”m pretty sure something will. The thing is, I can handle most things as long as my family is rolling along smoothly. I don’t think it ever will.

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