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After dinner smoke
- by Marisa
- January 3, 2006
This is proving to be a problem. I want a smoke after I eat. I don’t have one, so I feel like I’m not done eating. I leave the table. I find something else to do. But it just feels like I’m not done. So I end up back in the kitchen with another plate. Shit.
So now I’m chewing my nicotine gum right after I eat and pretending to smoke this toy cigarette. Yes, I’m actually taking deep tokes from it. At first it didn’t seem like enough but now, if I close my eyes, I can almost feel the pretend smoke filling up my lungs.
I’m losing my mind.
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You can make it.
Have you spoken with your doctor? A friend of mine went through a similar issue only it was driving and smoking. Her doctor prescribed some medication that inhibits cravings. She had an inhaler thingy that looked like a cigarette and some pills. It worked for her.
It’s early yet. Hang in there.
There’s an artificial cigarette calledE-Z Quit that draws like a cigarette and has a peppermint taste. Might be worth a try….
Your not losing your mind, your in the process of regaining it..:)
After eating is always the worst time. Your almost over the HARD part. It takes a few days for the nicotine to get out of your system, and then your cravings are all in your “head” so to speak. Its a habit you have had for YEARS, it will take time, your doing wonderfully!
Tried those pills several years ago. I was soooo hopeful. Within a few days, my eyes began to swell. I had no idea what was causing it but I stopped the patch and pills just to be sure. It tooks weeks for the redness around my eyes to go away. Then I tried again, with just the pills. POOF! My eyes swelled.
I’ve tried once more since then, cold turkey, no patch or gum or pills. I failed miserably – after only a few hours.
I think I’m still missing the act of smoking. The gum is helping with the nicotine cravings. One day at a time, right?
I’m checking that out. It looks like just what I need.
Thank you!
Of course. But right now, I’m feeling a bit out of sorts. It’s time for me to go outside for my morning smoke. I’m chewing my gum and typing. Seems I ought to be doing something else. Maybe I should take a walk around the building or something.
Hmmm… all in my head, huh? There are some who would say that it’s about time there was something in my head.
I’m feeling stronger, jsut a bit out of sorts, you know? And I’m reminding myself of why I quit. Every once in a while, I think about how much I enjoyed smoking. That’s when I have to remember the high cost, the dirty air, the black lungs and the CONTROL those damn things have had over me.
Then I pray.
That’s what I kepp telling myself.
Sweetie it has been 7 years for me, and there are times I still think, (after eating) Its time for a cigarett. Then I remember all the bad things about it, the cost, the smell, how I felt, and then I thank the lord for giving me the streagth to stop.
You can do it. I know you can. If you need to vent, cry, scream, bite someones head off, Im here
Now there are two of us telling you that then!
Here are some other suggestions for the hand-to-mouth craving after dinner:
Carrot and/or celery sticks, a hot bevvy like herbal tea. I think something to help you relax would be good for that. Chamomile or something maybe…
The trick is to make a new habit, but one that is a lot healthier and not something to put you on a path of self-distruction (like over-eating).
You can do it!! You’re almost there.
Hang in there!!! If my dad could quit (after over 40 years of smoking), then so can you!
Need the encouragement today for some reason. Very jittery. Got some relaxing music just for those times when I’m a bit frazzled? I know you’ve been writing but you are still composing, aren’t you? Got anything that combines the ocean with spiritual healing with uh… something that I can’t quite put my finger on?
Sorry. Mind is mushy.
Yes, I’m still composing. Though, I haven’t written anything like that in quite a while.
If I can manage it, I’ll try to send you a digital copy of something called “Celestial Plains” that I wrote a number of years ago. It’s very “new age.” Very relaxing soft sounding and quiet. It combines some elements of a distant thunderstorm and other natural sounds.
At the moment, I’m not even writing… my head is swimming because I’ve got a horrible caffeine headache and a nasty cold. Life is such a joy!
Excedrin! That’s my magic headache pill.
Can’t help you with the cold. Those always kick my butt.