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Less than 3 hours and 54 minutes, I’ll be a non-smoker. I’m staying calm on the outside but my insides are scrambled.
I need to pray and meditate. I know that. I need to get my head in the right place. But right now, my head is all about the cigarettes. Shit. That’s so pathetic.
So what did I just do? I lit a smoke. Yeah, writing about it makes me want one. And here’s where I’m really twisted. I was thinking that I’d just try not to smoke so much today, kind of practicing for 2006 and my new smoke-free life. But then I thought, no, this is my last chance to smoke. Why start my suffering sooner? Tomorrow I’ll wish I’d taken advantage of these last hours because I won’t be able to have a cigarette then and I can now.
I know. That’s just sick.
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Chain smoke now! Enough to get you SICK of it. Dont stop till midnight. Then set your mind that YOU WILL NOT SMOKE, and do something with your hands, Knit, paint, something. I ate lots of carrots, and pumpkin seeds, the first three days are the hardest, but cold turkey is the best way to do it.
*hugs* Good Luck I KNOW you can do it
Chain smoking pretty much describes what I’ve been doing.
I’m not sure keeping my hands busy will help. I have a cig lit no matter what I’m doing. I’ve even had one burning on the stand outside my shower!!! Yeah, I’d reach out and take a puff every so often.
This is a 34 year addiction. I’ll have to live to 65 to say I’ve been smoke-free over half my life.
Now, to get my head in the right place…..
Good luck … and good riddance! I quit in 2003, and if I can do it, I know you can.
I am SO much happier as a total non-smoker. I don’t feel like I’m going through life with this huge crutch, plus everything just smells & tastes so much better. YOU CAN DO IT! (But yeah, totally smoke all you want to tonight
Whatever you do, DONT let yourself get upset if you fail at first! Just call it a minor setback and get back on track. If you get angry at yourself, you will find it a lot harder.
Happy New Year! I have a little less than 6 hours left. My Resolution is to get into graduate school by hook or by crook.